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Anonymous asked: You're very confusing..
Not really, I’m a boy who’s also a girl who’s also a girl who is also a boy that dresses like a boy or a girl that dresses like a boy or a girl that dresses like a girl or a boy that dresses like a girl that likes being fucked like a boy and wants a dick sometimes and wants boobs sometimes and doesn’t want boobs sometimes and likes boys that like girls that are boys or boys that likes girls that are girls or boys that like boys that are girls or girls that like girls that are girls or girls that like girls that are boys or girls that like boys that are girls
platitudeproblem asked: Hi there! Having just read your last post, i've been left feeling all too aware of my own ignorance - I see now that my understanding of menstruation is solely informed by a totally regressive, cis-centric perspective, and I was hoping to learn more about what menstruation means to you. Can you recommend any resources that might be able to help me better educate myself? Thank you - and apologies for potentially pushing you to discuss so personal a matter further!
TW: Brief mention of perceivable self harm, trans misogyny
Hey there! Thanks very much for reaching out to me about this. I’m actually really not sure what resources I could potentially point you to. It’s a really new territory for me—I’m really just entering into it with my partner, Cea Wiley, who is a much more well-studied herbalist than I. I’m taking some herbal androgen blockers (Chaste Berry, Black Cohosh, Saw Palmetto) to aid in reducing my body’s testosterone production. PMS is caused through fluctuating hormonal levels, so in that sense, I am working to be more receptive to recognizing fluctuations in my hormonal production. As someone that experiences sensation in intense loops/arcs, Some of the work I’m doing is to make those loops slightly tighter and smaller and have a more consistent monthly awareness of a certain way of inhabiting my body.
Something I havn’t done yet, which will have to wait until the Summer when the plants I need are wild again, is to make a flower essence to aid in that process. I havn’t yet decided on what herbs will be necessary for me in it, but Cea has recommended a specific process of beginning it at the onset of the new lunar cycle, which I will do in the month of my birth (September), in or around a tidal body of water.
For me, I’m not using hormonal treatment or participating in more aggressive/fast transitional processes, such as electrolysis. I find that at the moment, the process of maintaining my preferred presentation (shaving every day or twice a day) feels like part of a series of important rituals that ground me in the work/love/self love related to my desired sensation of embodiment. For one, I don’t identify solely or entirely as a girl or a woman. I think my experience falls towards that end of the gender spectrum, but I’m still evaluating how I feel about placing myself on that spectrum in the first place. For me, herbalism has greatly aided in my process of locating myself in my body, its particularities, proclivities, and also, its dissolve into wind/wilderness. As my experience of parsing through/understanding my embodiment/gender identity is rooted in magic practices and witchcraft, it makes sense for me to use a lot of time in the various processes of embodiment I will undergo to feel a consistently vibrant and profound connection of my soul to my form and my form to its environs.
There’s not a lot of writing I’ve been able to find that talks about non-western ritual/self-induced menstruation. Something I’ve considered as a functioning stand-in for my body’s inability to bleed without intervention is intentional bleeding—using yarrow to induce a nosebleed, or having a ritual once-monthly knife-induced blood let. I realize that there is an inherent violence to this imagery, and have a history of self-harm, so it’s definitely complicated for me to start parsing through this. To begin with, I don’t have a blade that was made/given to me with this purpose in mind, which I think would be a necessary component. One avenue of thought for me with this is that my history of self-harm was always, even at a very young age, about snapping myself into a sense of visceral embodiment, and was used to combat disassociation. I find it’s important to keep in mind to not demonize/shame the methods, however extreme, people use to locate themselves in their bodies.
And with that, here’s some other writings about CAMAB/mtf/genderqueer menstrual processes. A lot of the writings deal with trans misogyny, gender essentialism, medical language, things of that nature, which can be intense and potentially triggering/upsetting. I also have found it difficult to locate radical/trans/genderqueer writing that is rooted in a non-scientific language (such as a mythic/magic one). Personally, I find talking about transition/queerness in a solely scientific language to be alienating, cold, and disempowering. So, if anyone has any resources to add to this list, I would certainly welcome them.
Ask a Trans Woman:
The Transgender Boards:
Herbal Androgen Blockers:
Herbal Miscarriage: a warning about this. This process is ancient and extremely dangerous. I’m posting this because I think it’s important, and related, but in general, I think caution even when engaging in information related to it is tantamount.